Lost a very dear friend this weekend and my heart is in pieces, thinking about our last conversation where we were both pushed for time and an intense conversation was cut short because of other commitments, with a promise to see each other next Saturday and then we will make sure we don’t get interrupted. A promise to spend the time she needed as she needed a shoulder and a friend. With a big hug as always and a promise to make time we left.
And so, the conversation stayed with both of us. A short message to say thank you for an ear lend. We will not be able to continue, we will not be able to continue our discussion. I will not be able to tell her, hang in there, God will find a way. No more anything’s. I realise that I missed out, as I will not be able to discuss or support her. I will not be able to help her through her pain, I failed as a friend as I postponed her feelings for a more convenient time. Had I known, last week what I know now, I would not let the cold chase me home, I would not have waited for tomorrow. I would not have………
It is with a heavy heart that I today want to urge you…. DON’T WAIT FOR TOMORROW. A very special person in my life gave me more unwelcome news yesterday, I think I failed her, as I could for the life off me not think off any encouraging words, caught up in my current state of mind, but this time I realise that I know I might, or might not have the time. Asking God why is life so cruel, why do I have to go through this. I once a long time ago, thanked God for letting the cup pass me by, today I wish I never had, as now I must hold on to that bitter cup. Not sure how to swallow, not sure how to “let the cup pass me by” I’ve been swallowing tears since Sunday and today it’s twice the sore I can handle. Promising support is not the answer. Not sure how but time will need to become a priority. But I hope she knows we love her to the end of our lives.
If you have something weighing on your heart, don’t let time be your enemy. A lesson I need to learn for myself as well.
To all my blog friends. Today is all the time you have. Use it wisely.
Feeding the ducks 2018/07/18